here i am.

ok, don't even remember the last time i posted on here. soooo sorry! haha! not that my life is oh so interesting at the moment anyway.

so let's see, what's been going on in my life? well, for the past few months i have literally been on the verge of a nervous breakdown. i haven't been dealing well with the added stress of two kids and a little bit of PPD, and mom withdrawal. i really am such a mama's girl. so, poor shane has had to struggle to keep me, the kids and our sanity safe, while also working all day and then coming home to listen to me cry to him and help me clean the house.
then keke came to stay with us for a couple months to work and figure out what she wants to do with her life. it was such a nice time. she, with her tough love, was able to scoop me out of the pit i had tried to bury myself in and get me back on my feet. pretty much told me i complain WAY too much and to forget about the things that i will never be able to change and just focus on the positive and work towards making my life what i WANT it to be. then my mom and awesome aunt came out for a week and that was so much fun! it was party central at our house! but they had to leave and keke right after them so it was back to doing it solo so that's what i've been trying to do.
however, after she left, things kind of got worse. i was so used to having her around, and let me tell you! that girl loves to clean, and i love a clean house, and with my hands full of two kids it's pretty hard to clean without help. so i fell back into that pit again. for a couple weeks. haha! it was pretty bad. UGH!
but for the first time, i took the advice of friends and family and have incorporated a schedule into our lives. it's so great! for the first time EVER i actually feel like i have this! like it's not a chore so much as a routine and kenzie has caught on really quick and helps out so much! they both take naps at 1:00 and it gives me at least one hour of free time. and i can clean, veg, play, do whatever i want! and that makes my days so much better! i'm happier and lighter and feel more like myself. and shane, i can see that he is so relieved to not have to stress over this all the time.
but, BOOO, enough about all that crap! the sun has finally begun to shine!!!! and that could be what the big change is! yay! so, what do ya say to some pictures?! my two babies are growing so fast and i'm finally healthy enough to love every second! all i do is play with them pretty much! whether it's inside or out, we play and laugh and dance and sing! life is grand and here are some pictures to prove it! hahahahaha!!!!

ok, aunty olivia got the kids
swings to go on the swing set so
they could use instead of look at it!

this is a fun one! she got to go to the corner
without a diaper. bubba thought it was
pretty funny!

when she sleeps with us, we really get
the short end of the stick...

they are too cute. seriously.

and, just to prove i'm still alive...