So tell me, here I am each day, struggling to keep my house clean, keep my kids clean, safe and happy. I feel like I am such a failure. What am I doing wrong?! House is ALWAYS cluttered! If I get it clean, it takes no time for it to get totally messed up again! I never have dinner ready for Shane! Well, if I do, then nothing has gotten done. It always seems like in order to complete one task, something else gets left out. Why can't I just do it all and have some time to spare for myself?! I sometimes feel like I resent being so depended on. Don't get me wrong, I love, absolutely love being a mom. But I never get a break. Ever. I know if I asked I could have so much help. I don't think I'm being prideful by not asking. I just feel like I'm sooo overwhelmed! And how can I in good conscience pawn my kids off on someone else. Hence the dilemma. I can't ask someone else to take my kids until I feel like I have a better handle on them myself. Ugh. Maybe it is pride! What is wrong with me?!?!?!
I'm just venting. Keke is going to be on a plane in the morning to come live with us for a while. I look at this as such a blessing. She's got her own reasons for coming but this is something I have been praying for, for such a long time! Maybe this way, with a little bit of help, I won't feel quite so helpless over the way my life is going. I'm happy, I just wish I were more of a superwoman. Haha. That's not too much to ask, right?
Layne is getting so big now. We just got Kenzie a bigger carseat and moved Layne into her old one. It's so fun to listen to them talking back and forth. Makenzie is turning into a holy terror. She is into EVERYTHING. And gets the biggest attitude when I try to discipline her. Ugh. Haha!
I can't even have an hour to myself. It's just so hard right now. Just venting. My kids are both screaming now, story of my life.
Oh Happy Day!!!
4 comments:
Mommy's are always trying to keep up... You're doing great! Hope you enjoy having your sister. Love ya!
Maybe something is wrong with me, but I never feel guilty about not getting stuff done around the house, or the times I don't have dinner made. Being a mom is hard enough with out you being hard on yourself, too! This is the phase of life we are in. ANd later on we get to be in the phase of having clean houses. I also don't feel guilty about taking an hour or two to myself every Saturday while Jud watches the kids. Seriously, it's the only way I keep my sanity.
Don't be so hard on yourself. And I bet if you talked to Shane about it, he'd tell you your sanity is more important than a perfectly clean house, a hot dinner as soon as he walks in the door, and never having time to yourself.
I haven't been on your blog in a while, because like me...I thought you had abandon it.lol
Sorry things have been rough. I always feel like there isn't enough time in the day. I try and remember that this is the prime of my life,, and these sweet little ones will not be sweet or little forever.lol My sister-in-law says the same thing Anitra does. "You have the rest of your life to have a clean house" Try not to compare yourself to others and look at what you feel like you are successful at, everyone has their nitch. I bet you make your kids laugh everyday.:)
I haven't been on your blog in a while, because like me...I thought you had abandon it.lol
Sorry things have been rough. I always feel like there isn't enough time in the day. I try and remember that this is the prime of my life,, and these sweet little ones will not be sweet or little forever.lol My sister-in-law says the same thing Anitra does. "You have the rest of your life to have a clean house" Try not to compare yourself to others and look at what you feel like you are successful at, everyone has their nitch. I bet you make your kids laugh everyday.:)
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